so, hi. i haven't done a real update in awhile because i haven't really had the chance to think. my body clock is adjusting to waking up at 7 a.m. except it's been wanting to automatically wake up at 6 instead just to piss me off. i am motivated by the mighty dollar and that's okay for now. i'm gradually building up a work wardrobe again because i discovered that i no longer like the work clothes i wore 2 years ago since the pants are all high-waisted to make my ass look mammoth in proportion to my waist. thank god for low-riseish pants. they shrinketh my assy. i've gone a little shoe crazy lately and bought 3 pairs of summer shoes in the last few weeks. i love shoes in an unpure way.

i am so grateful for this job. it came just in the nick of time, too. things were getting pretty stressy around here and now i feel much better knowing that i can start paying for my own shit and bills. the only thing i am worried about is the fact that none of my taxes are going to be taken out since i'm freelance so i need to figure out how much to set aside. anyone out there ever freelance and know?

the dreaded subway ride to and from work isn't half bad. i've figured out that if i take the 8:25 train i can always get a seat. if i leave a little early (4:55 at the latest) i can also get a seat on the way back. this is most important in the mornings since if i can't sit down first thing in the morning i feel like i'm going to pass out.

i'm still looking for something better/more permanent but it's slim pickins. the ny times help wanteds section is consistently 3 pages long (short).

i can't believe it's already june. it is getting a little warmer but the rain is relentless. i need to start making plans for the summer. i want to take a roadtrip where i'm behind the wheel and i will.